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fennectikHad a couple episodes where my brain loves to recall shitty past events of my life, such as when slaving 4 years of my youth in High School in exchange for being treated like crap, by students and faculty alike, using things like verbal and physical abuse, racial discrimination, and making me feel like questioning my life at early age. Today, I spent the next couple hours arguing with AI about how after years of seeing how incredibly horrible people can be, in real life and online, you just don't feel like talking to any strangers you meet later on, much less trust them.
All that with the implications of keeping it inside once you learn that whenever you open up to anyone, tey use such things against you in the long run.
Like all the times it happens, I just let it run its course so I can get on with my life.
The only difference is that I am still seeing that therapist bi-weekly so I can have an outlet and not waste time I could use in a productive manner.
I just love it whenever I tried talking to a "kind" person about anything like this, the only thing they kept telling me was that I was a "grown-ass man," or to "man-up."
Keep in mind most of these jackholes write paragraph-long entries about how sad they feel for petty things like not having money to buy latest Anime/My Little Pony figurine, or how much they love the attention they get from their "friends" following them on social media, somehow making them think they are above anyone else.
All that with the implications of keeping it inside once you learn that whenever you open up to anyone, tey use such things against you in the long run.
Like all the times it happens, I just let it run its course so I can get on with my life.
The only difference is that I am still seeing that therapist bi-weekly so I can have an outlet and not waste time I could use in a productive manner.
I just love it whenever I tried talking to a "kind" person about anything like this, the only thing they kept telling me was that I was a "grown-ass man," or to "man-up."
Keep in mind most of these jackholes write paragraph-long entries about how sad they feel for petty things like not having money to buy latest Anime/My Little Pony figurine, or how much they love the attention they get from their "friends" following them on social media, somehow making them think they are above anyone else.
