Random Thoughts

I deleted my newly made Instagram account. I realized how much of a black hole this social media platform has become, just like X, Facebook, Tik Tok, and others, and that I really don't need it to boost my artwork or anything in particular whatsoever.

It makes me sick how many mind-rotting social media things are out there, and how it feels like you're supposed to be in every single one of them to even "exist."

I also have gained a new level of disgust with furry rick griffin in drawing smut of Fox and King having anal intercourse. It saddens me how little respect he has for his creations.

I made the sound decision to give up drawing and just forgetting about it. I had thought that as long as I liked and enjoyed what I created it would've been enough without trying pleasing anyone else. But life isn't that easy, and I just kept lying to myself. I still have a deviantart account, but nothing drawn will ever be uploaded there or anywhere else. I am thinking on writing stories, and at least just use anything to polish them. It's easier than having to worry about how a body should be structured.

I've tried doing this for over 20 years and I never was able to grow at all. So telling me to continue practicing its not going to cut it.

I'm tired. I got nothing else to say about it.

The Unsettling Maturity Imbalance in Housepets!: A Critique of Peanut and Tarot’s Relationship

The recent developments regarding Peanut and Tarot’s relationship in Rick Griffin’s Housepets!—specifically the revelation of Tarot's pregnancy—have been met with hesitation from this reader. While the creation of new families is a common narrative device, the context of this pairing raises significant questions about character consistency and relational responsibility.

The Core Conflict: Adult vs. Perpetual Child

The central issue is the stark disparity in emotional and mental maturity between the two characters. Other central Housepets! couples, such as King and Bailey or Kitsune and Kix, are consistently portrayed as mature adults who navigate their relationships with mutual understanding and responsibility.

Peanut, however, remains a character locked in a state of perpetual childishness. He is the naive, easily bewildered, and highly dependent protagonist, often relying on Grape for guidance in even trivial matters. In contrast, Tarot is depicted as a reliable, mature, and adult figure. The fact that a character like Peanut, who acts by all available context as a child, is now set to father a child with a grounded adult like Tarot feels profoundly dissonant.

Sentience, Responsibility, and Consent

It is understood that these characters are animals, but within the comic's context, they are fully sentient individuals whose actions are guided by conscious choice, not mere instinct (as demonstrated by King and Bailey’s intentional, responsible relationship). The human-level sentience establishes a clear expectation of adult responsibility in sexual relationships.

This brings us to the most troubling aspect: Tarot's apparent unquestioning acceptance of Peanut’s advances. Given Peanut’s consistent, child-like demeanor, it is questionable why a mature character like Tarot would repeatedly engage in sexual activity with him without considering the implications, or ensuring he fully understood them. This dynamic introduces the unsettling possibility that Tarot may have capitalized on Peanut’s innocence, persuading him to continue an act he engages in simply because "it felt good," without grasping the life-changing consequences. Tarot's later uncertainty regarding the pregnancy only reinforces the idea that this was not a planned, mature decision.

Narrative Intent and Uncomfortable Tropes

The creator’s history of producing NSFW art featuring these characters, including explicit sexual acts, does not alleviate the discomfort; instead, it underscores the maturity gap being exploited in the relationship.
My speculation is that Griffin may intend to use the resulting family dynamic as a running joke, with Tarot taking on the sole responsibility of parenting and perpetually protecting the offspring from Peanut's inherent lack of accountability. Unlike the lighthearted comedy generated by the other couples, a narrative built on an adult exploiting a partner’s immaturity and then shouldering all the consequences alone would feel neither funny nor lighthearted.

So what is the problem? Well, the problem is Tarot. As a character who consistently demonstrates relational maturity and emotional intelligence similar to Bailey, she appears to have repeatedly engaged with Peanut, whose demeanor reflects a state of arrested emotional development. This introduces a difficult question: why did Tarot not exercise foresight regarding Peanut, given his pervasive innocence and likely ignorance concerning the consequences of sex? This concern is heightened by the unsettling possibility that Tarot may have capitalized on Peanut's naïveté, persuading him to continue an act he engages in simply because "it felt good," without fully comprehending the life-altering outcome.

In short, Peanut operates as the emotional and mental equivalent of a child, and Tarot, in all senses of the word, is an adult. Their pairing, and especially its reproductive culmination, appears to be an uncomfortable portrayal of an adult leveraging a partner’s inherent innocence under the superficial banner of mutual affection. While the creator may intend a meaningful resolution, the current dynamic threatens to undermine the foundational standard of responsible, consensual relationships established elsewhere in the comic. I maintain my reservations, finding this development, despite any attempts at humor, fundamentally unsettling due to its stark imbalance of relational power and maturity.

Everytime I watch a video of some channel on youtube talking about a cartoon or a videogame featuring animal characters and then blatantly refer them as "furries" bothers me to no end.

Especially when I feel like it's more like an insult and a jab at those peculiar people who dress up as animals and do their weird thing and an insult to said cartoon/videogame characters that have NOTHING to do with such people and their fetish.

I bet any asshole who tosses that word also does it because of that idiotic "lol furries" mocking mentality, thinking everyone does it as well.

Well bad news, the real world doesn't bother making such statements outloud, only shut ins like you do who probably visit places like 4chan and wants to be accepted by kids who take everything as a joke.

The only thing you make me do is to unsubscribe from your channel and make you feel the loss of not liking your videos.

And I got Loona-

"Like Loona, you are independent, edgy, and fiercely protective of those you care about. You have a tough exterior, but beneath it lies a deeply loyal and caring heart. Your sharp wit and no-nonsense attitude help you navigate through challenges with confidence and resilience. While you may come across as aloof, your friends know they can always count on you for support and honesty. Embrace your inner Loona, and continue to balance your fierce independence with the deep connections you cherish."

I'm pleasantly amused.

So I'm trying some of those AI art generators here and there, and while some think this may well be an alternative to actually pick up your pencil and create your own thing...it isn't.

Sure, some results look nice, especially with likes of Pokemon and other well known IPs. But mostly something tragic spews out the results, which comes to the equivalent of sheer nightmare fuel with characters sprouting extra limbs, fingers, eyes, etc...or becoming a melty mess to the point you have no idea WTF you're looking at.

So if anyone believes they could use such "generated" content for the sake of becoming a better artist, I'll tell you that it could potentially make your skills a whole lot worse.

I'm not that skilled at drawing, but I at least know where eyes on a face are placed.

Just saying.

Still, its amusing to see what mess it shoots out whenever I try and poke it.